Welcome To The Party!

 I feel good now. I was miserable for a lot of months. I was always worried and angry. Now I feel good; really good.

I was trying to find out the meaning of my life. I wasn't sure whether my life was worth. I was failing in everything; life, career, relationships. Everything was crumbling down. I was helpless. Nothing would motivate me. But the most devastating thing was that, I couldn't hear or feel my Lord. I thought he left me and felt more depressed.

Later I decided to analyse things more clearly. I decided to spend some time alone in peace with a lot of prayer. That was the best decision I have taken in my life. I understood that it's me who has distanced myself from him. It's because of that distance that I couldn't hear him. 

It doesn't matter how much a person seperate himself from God, a person cannot be seperated from God. You can distance yourself. But you can never seperate from him. Because you are a part of him. You are made of him. It's him who nurtured you. He is your mother. 

If you try to shut him down, he will not punish you. YOU are punishing yourself. You are trying to get rid of something that's in you and you will feel MISERABLE. DEPRESSED. ALONE. And then you think it's God who is punishing you for you-don't-know-what. You will ask him "Why God,Why". He will say "Come back to me". But you can't hear him because you shut him down. And then you will start complaining about God 'who doesn't even answer you'. But sorry to say, YOU are the PROBLEM here.

I went back to him. He is the sweetest. He welcomed me with a party. He is always positive, pleasant and merciful. I FELT COMPLETE. I asked for the
companionship of Mother Mary; she was very quick to answer. She is a GEM. I took a concrete decision to hold that gem throughout my life.

So now, even if my life is imperfect, I am at peace. I have answers to my questions and I am ready to face my problems. I welcome you to the PARTY.